Your Song

for Carson

It’s a damn hot May afternoon, 1984,
and tomorrow is your graduation,
but today, for no reason but restlessness,
we are driving up Sewannee Mountain
in your beat-up Chevy Vega,
orange with white doors, one of which
doesn’t open anymore.

For a change, Todd isn’t with us,
our band of three, like bickering pop stars,
broken up for the afternoon.
This is what I’ve always wanted,
still yearning for you, the cool guy I’ve loved
since the first day of sophomore year.
I haven’t realized it yet—
that we aren’t meant for each other—
at least not that way.

We climb onto a rocky outcrop,
you right on the edge.
You will always be on the edge.
You tie a Japanese flag scarf
around your head—a solitary sharp
shooter, fire, ready, aim—
I imagine kissing you,
but this is your life, not mine.

We sit for an hour watching the horizon.

On the way back down the mountain,
windows down, dusty wind tangling
my long hair, I am laughing, nervously,
as an empty Taco Bell bag swirls at my feet.
I know our time together is almost gone.
The radio doesn’t work, so you begin to sing,
“You can tell everyone that this is your song…
how wonderful life is, while you’re in the world.”

Years later, anytime I hear this tune,
it still makes me feel alone.

Karen Head is the author of Disrupt This!: MOOCs and the Promises of Technology (a nonfiction book about issues in contemporary higher education), as well as four books of poetry (Sassing, My Paris Year, Shadow Boxes and On Occasion: Four Poets, One Year). She also co-edited the poetry anthology Teaching as a Human Experience: An Anthology of Poetry, and has exhibited several acclaimed digital poetry projects, including her project “Monumental” (part of Antony Gormley’s One and Other Project) which was detailed in a TIME online mini-documentary. Her poetry appears in a number of national and international journals and anthologies. In 2010 she won the Oxford International Women’s Festival Poetry Prize.

Head has held residencies at the Hambidge Center for the Creative Arts and Sciences and the Virginia Center for the Creative Arts-France. She has also taught in study abroad programs in Barcelona, Spain and Oxford, England. 

She serves as Editor of the international poetry journal Atlanta Review, and as secretary for the Poetry Atlanta Board of Directors. On a more unusual note, she is currently the Poet Laureate of Waffle House—a title that reflects an outreach program to bring arts awareness to rural high schools in Georgia, which has been generously sponsored by the Waffle House Foundation. She is an Associate Professor in the School of Literature, Media, and Communication at the Georgia Institute of Technology, where she also serves as the Executive Director of the Naugle Communication Center. For fifteen years, Head has been a visiting artist and scholar at the Institute for American Studies at Technische Universität Dortmund in Germany.Head grew up as an Army Brat—one reason she loves to travel so much, and has family in the Netherlands and the United Kingdom. She is a native of Atlanta, Georgia.

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